With the death of my mom.. I've had a few problems.
First of all it is about six months after her death on (date withheld) and its harder than ever.
I've been having a really hard time with depression and self-worth and keeping my concentration focused. How do I get myself out of this?
I know about the plan of salvation and I have faith in that or I'm sure I would be much worse off, but it is still affecting me really bad at times.
And I cry all the time without knowing why.
My Dad had been dating for a while and proposed to a woman in December of 2012, only knowing her for only a week.
I had only met her once before the proposal day.
Their marriage is to occur as soon as they can get it approved to be married in the Temple.
My problem is I really REALLY don't like her.
I am quite a loving person, but she annoys me and seems really fake all the time.
I am not mean to her, but I kind of avoid her.
I hope that the only reason why I am not liking her is because I don't want her replacing my mom, but what if I actually don't like HER.
So far my three little sisters love her (ages 13, 11, and 7).
My older sister doesn't have a preference since she is moved out of the house anyway.
I hope she can be a loving mom to my younger sisters because I know they need someone... but I do too.
Just . . . I can't trust her.
Hopefully over time things will change.
My aunt who had been living with us since before my mom died, has just moved back home.
I've been having more fights with my Dad since he really isn't a good mom.. and now here comes a step-mom.
I feel like I don't have an adult-ly motherly figure that cares about me and loves me and that I can talk to. I feel so very alone.
- Name Withheld
P.S. I am sorry for sending you all these emails.. I'm sure you are tired from hearing from me. But I love how you try to help with problems with a twist on them that keeps the Savior in mind.
And you can't judge since you don't know me personally.